half way

Today is half way through the man being gone!!! I know my last few posts have been a little sappy but now at a half way point I can look at the 2nd half with optimism! While I am still missing him like crazy, it is only a matter of weeks now before he comes back. May our spring memories be as wonderful as all the others :)

hard

Have you ever missed someone so much it hurts? For those of you who don't know, the love of my life faithfully serves our military. With a job like his, he is often times gone. For the most part I am a pretty strong girl and do just fine when he is gone, but there are some days when just the thought of him not being here, makes me all teary. We are only 2 days from being half way through this trip, usually the halfway point is an exciting thing for me and while I am very excited this time as well, a part of me is sad cause it still seems so far away.

It is hard to be away from someone you love for so long but there is something about missing them so increadably much that reminds you how deep your love is for them. Everytime I am missing him alot someone reminds me that this is the life of the military and its not going to go away. They are totally right. This is a life style that I am choosing by being in love with him. I suppose the one things that makes it all ok, is that no matter how hard it is some times, and no matter how much it makes my heart hurts when he is away, I cant imagine being with anyone else.

My dearest Matthew - thank you for being my stength, when I am not.

missing

missing my baby like crazy today...

good bye

how lucky am i to have someone that makes saying good bye so hard... :(

life

be a best friend

tell the truth

over use i love you

go to work

do your best

dont out smart your common sense

never let your prayin knees get lazy

and love like crazy

Mine

I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm not in a dream
That's how it seems
I close my eyes and breathe in the sweetest moments I've ever known
It feels like home
And here I am I want to be your everything
There you are
Turning winter into spring

I fall apart Just a word from you just somehow seems to fix
Whatever's wrong
Oh, you reach into the weakest moments
And remind me that I'm strong
You've got to know
I'd be a fool not to see you even worse
To forget that you're more than I deserve
Nothing makes sense when you're not here
As if my whole world disappears
Without you what's the point of it

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine!!!!

thought

maintain integrity while still being an optimist... i like it

sunshine

So I have been doing a really good job of getting up early and going to the gym before I head into work. This morning I got to the gym around 6:30 and it was still dark, all the cars were still iced over and the roads were slick. I did my typical work out and around 7:30 was getting ready in the locker room. Now just a little back ground on my gym, a lot of the members are what you would consider… older. To put it nicely I think the membership is going to die off soon. So anyway I get a real kick out of listening to the conversations in the locker room… for example, the other day I got caught in middle of an argument between two ladies on whether or not men lose their “mo-jo” after 20 years of marriage or 30… clearly I had no comment! Anyway this morning, I was getting ready in the locker room as all the ladies were getting ready for “swim class” they were all talking about how beautiful the sunshine was today and how it was really putting them in a good mood, now at first I thought they had just all lost their mind, as I continued to listen to them rave about the sunshine today, I began to think maybe “sunshine” was code word for something else… my mind wandered at that point, giggling a little to myself. Anyway, I finished getting ready and headed to my car, and believe it or not… the sun was shining!!! It was a beautiful sunny day all day long. Thank you to my locker room ladies for keeping me entertained and may the sun come out again tomorrow!!!! :)

Long Day

You've got someone here
Wants to make it all right
Someone that loves you more
Than life right here
You've got willing arms that'll hold you tight
A hand to lead you on through the night right here
I know your heart can get
All tangled up inside
But don't you keep it to yourself


When your long day is over
And you can barely drag your feet
The weight of the world
Is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on home to me



You know I know you
Like the back of my hand
You know I'm gonna do
All that I can right here
Gonna lie with you
Till you fall asleep
When the morning comes
I'm still gonna be right here
Yes, I am
So take your worries and
Just drop them at the door
Baby, leave it all behind


When your long day is over
And you can barely drag your feet
The weight of the world
Is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on home to me


Baby, let me be your safe harbor
Don't let the water come
And carry you away


When your long day is over
And you can barely drag your feet
The weight of the world
Is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on home to me


You've got someone here wants
To make it all right
Someone that loves you more
Than life right here

new year

Well its a new year and with a new year comes new thoughts, new ideas, and new resolutions. It took me a little while to decide what my 2010 resolution would be, I debated some new fad diet, or working out more, you know, the usual. But this year my resolution is a little less superficial and a little more personal. My 2010 resolution is to continue to grow. No I don't mean taller, cause we all know that's not going to happen but what I mean is that I never become stale in who I am and the things that mean the most to me. May 2010 be a blessed year for me and everyone close to me.